Thursday, February 14, 2008

Sleep Deprivation

I silently scoffed last week when Hillary Clinton blamed a poorly timed comment of Bill’s on sleep deprivation. “Politicians will say anything,” I thought. Well, once again, God has humbled me.

We have been the proud parents of two for four whole weeks now, and I don’t believe I have ever been more sleep deprived in my life. It has been days since I’ve had the time to put on make-up, so today when I put my contacts in and went to put on some under eye cream, I just about looked around to see who was staring back at me in the mirror. This picture does no justice to the depth of purple rings surrounding these tired blue eyes, but I thought I’d post it anyway because it’s always fun for women to see a bad picture of another woman they know.

I really can't complain though, Glenn's eyes are literally so bloodshot everyday that he looks like he has pink eye. Each morning I look at his eyes, hoping that the red has gone away, but often it is just worse from the short night we've had.

Anyhow, I won’t bore you with the lack of sleep schedule here, but if we can piece meal four hours of sleep in a night, we are doing very well. After four weeks (with no reprise!), that wears on a soul. Yet, it is the universal experience of parenthood worldwide, so I should feel honored with these rights of passage (really, I could have done without them if Heaven should ever decide to send us an easy child!).

I have been surprised at how sleep deprivation has taken my usually patient and loving parental nature and thrown it into a tailspin of survival mode. I feel reincarnated into Mother Teresa when on the rare occasion I am granted a nap (I think that has happened two or three times during these past four weeks).

Hats off to you who know this journey (and bigger salutations to those who know much worse and wish this was the depth of their afflictions!).

Anyhow- Bill Clinton, I feel for you. Maybe we’ll both do best to just keep our mouths shut until our eyes have shut long enough to feel human again!

(While he doesn't like to sleep at night, he is still adorable!)


Tristie said...

I remember when we brought our #2 home from the hospital and for his first months of life thinking, "What did we do?" and "Why did we think this was a good idea?" Oh, do I feel for you, woman. It is SUCH a hard thing to function for YOURSELF on minimal sleep, now add a newborn that needs constant care and a busy toddler to push all your buttons, and voila! You've got yourself one psyco mama! For such a sleep deprived soul, you put it into words SO eloquently. I loved reading this post, but at the same time my heart ached for you the whole way through it! Hang in there, lady. I PROMISE it gets so much better!

Tristie said...

Oh, and I really don't think there is such a thing as an "easy baby". But he IS SO ADORABLE!

Valerie said...

Short term memory. Thank goodness for that. Reading your blog brought back so many memories, and yet, I still want to have more kids someday! Man, aren't we crazy?

Andrea said...

Oh, Kristen! I have forgotten those days. I value my sleep way too much now. I feel for you. I am going to come get Max and let you sleep one day next does that sound?
It was great to see you yesterday, and yes...he is adorable. Thank you for letting me hold him for so long. That helps with the baby-hunger more than I thought it would.

Lauren said...

Oh, I so feel for you! You already know this, but it's good to hear DOES get better! He is such a handsome little boy, just like his big brother. I love reading your posts! It's fun to keep up with y'all! Love ya lots!

Kelly N. said...

I echo what Tristie has said. It does get better, and you will get your sleep...sometime. Hang in there!!